Bellow are the conversation happen 2 days before where I suddently decided to meet another guy. Then yeah I told Ronaldo and this was his response.. Funny.. ^^ He meant good though.. ^^
Its abit long lah.. ahahahahha
True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*still dont wan slp?
True Friend Fernando says:
*FUCKING DUN EVER LET ME KNOW U GO OUT WITH OTHER GUYS
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*why le?
True Friend Fernando says:
*i will get disappointed in u
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
True Friend Fernando says:
*cos u fucking make yourself a fucking promise
*FULFILL IT
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*then u have to be dissapointed in me now
True Friend Fernando says:
*if u wan sex
*go masterbaute yourself
*wtf
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i already decided o go out with some one tomr
True Friend Fernando says:
*wtf u do now?
*why
*u are going to be in damm deep trouble
*fucking wakeup
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*so u will b dissapointed in me?
True Friend Fernando says:
*dun get fuck again
*hell yeah
*dam
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*good
True Friend Fernando says:
*fuck
*u like it right
*den your life
*u choose it
*i cannot do anything
*DAMM FUCKING SIAN
*SIAN!!!!!
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya
*same
*sian
True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)
True Friend Fernando says:
*WHY U GO OUT WITH HIM
*i fucking free
*u dun wan me
*u choose another guy
*i piss off with him
*he took over me
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*too bad
True Friend Fernando says:
*to go out with u
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*it already deicided
True Friend Fernando says:
*why
*why
*why why
*u wan sex with him?
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*no i don’t
True Friend Fernando says:
*den y meet?
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*dont know
True Friend Fernando says:
*y put yourself at risk
*u putting yourself at risk
*DO U FUCKING UNDERSTAND?
*Y U WAN TO HURT YOURSELF
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i am bored and useless
True Friend Fernando says:
*Y U WAN TO STEP INTO A RELATIONSHIP USING THIS SEX CHANNEL
*FUCKING WAKEUP
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya
*agree
True Friend Fernando says:
*U WILLL DAMM REGRET OK
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*its not possible
True Friend Fernando says:
*IF HE FUCKING TOUCH U
*U IN HEAVEN
*DEN U ARE GONE
*NO ONE CAN PULL U BACK
*NOT EVEN ME
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*same
*haiz
True Friend Fernando says:
*FUCK LA U
*I FUCKING DULAN
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i have the same feeling
True Friend Fernando says:
*GIVE U MY NUMBER
*U DUN WAN TAKE
*SHOW U MY FACE LIAO
*I WAN FRIEND U
*U DUN WAN ME
*FUCK LO
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*hmmm
True Friend Fernando says:
*I FUCKING SINCERE LO
*IF I FUCKING DO ANYTHING
*U CAN CALLL POLICE OR WAD
*I DARE TO GIVE U MY WORKPLACE
*ADDRESS OR WADEVER LO
*JUST TO PROVE TO U
*THAT I WAN TO BE FRIEND
*FUCKING DUN GO OUT LA
*WAH LAU
*LAST TIME U TELL ME
*WHY U DID ALL THIS
*NOT BECAUSE U USELESS
*JUST BECAUSE A WORD BORED
*BORED RUIN YOUR LIFE
*DUN LET IT ENTER U
True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*haiz
*i also dont wan
*lol
True Friend Fernando says:
*DEN
*########
*FUCKING CALL ME
*WE TALK
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*huh
True Friend Fernando says:
*I DUN WAN TALK DIRTY
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*dont wan
True Friend Fernando says:
*DUN LIKE THAT
*I REALLY WAN KNOW
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i am not good at fucking talk
True Friend Fernando says:
*-.-
*JUST TALK
*GIVE ME A CHANCE
*I WON DO ANYTHING
*PLEASE
*TRUST ME
*NOW GOING 3AM
*TML I GOT SCH
*I STILL NOT SLEEP
*I WAN TALK TO U
*JUST TALK
*NOTHING WRONG
*PLEASRE
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*dont wan
True Friend Fernando says:
*I TRY SO HARD TO HAVE YOUR NUMBER
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*go slp
True Friend Fernando says:
*OK
*FINE
*I FUCKING CHEE BYE GIVE UP
*KNN
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
True Friend Fernando says:
*U FUCKING MAKE ME ANGRY
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*finally give up?
True Friend Fernando says:
*yes
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*good for u
*i am not a decent girl
*lol
*dont waste your time on me
True Friend Fernando says:
*den u fucking putting yourself at risk
*by going out with him
*he fucking know how to talk to u care about u
*den your mind dunno how to think?
*if your parents know
*your bestie know
*they will fucking be shocked
*and think that u are stupid
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*definitely
True Friend Fernando says:
*DEN
*why u wan to do this
*just because
*i am bored
*i need sex
*i am horny
*fuck u la seriously
*u say u only wan to do with your bf?
*ok i respect
*den now u going out with ihm
**him
*if there no people around
*that guy will hold your hand
*hug u
*SERIOUS
*i am a guy
*i know wad going to happen
*-.-
*FUCK HIM man!
*-.-
*:@
*i say wadever shit i have in my mind
*if u feel offended
*den ...
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*haiz
*i know
*i understand
True Friend Fernando says:
*u dun haiz in front of me
*IF U understand u won do this
*give me your number u dun wan
*nbcb sia
*i dunno wad the fuck is wrong with u
*fucking wad the fuck is wrong with u !
True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*everything is wrong with me
*so just give up
True Friend Fernando says:
*ok
*k
*u are hurting yourself
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i know
True Friend Fernando says:
*get a condom ready tml
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i will not do it with him
True Friend Fernando says:
*believe me
*things happen fast
*u won anticipate it
*it just come
*and u will be caught unexpected
*fuck u seriously
*u r makiing me disappointed
*fuck that guy also
*help me punch his face
*count me in
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
*ok
*i will punch him tmr
*^^
*hahaha
True Friend Fernando says:
*i now talking thinks to u
*hahahah ^^
*still reply HAHHA ^^
*u how old
*20 year old liao
*same as me
*have sex with random bastards
*if u tio hiv
*aids
*u will fucking wake up
*from your nightmare
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya
True Friend Fernando says:
*u can block and delete me
*if u wan
*i fucking scold u
*i know u buay song liao
*i prepare to get block
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
*i wont la
*^^
True Friend Fernando says:
*wadever la ok
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ok
True Friend Fernando says:
*your blog make your life a shit
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya
*by knowing u
True Friend Fernando says:
*by knowing me?
*heng i not touching u
*i did not spoilt your life
*those guys did
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*^^
True Friend Fernando says:
*it not my business anymore
*i'm out of it
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
*i nvr ask u to come in
True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*huh?
True Friend Fernando says:
*WAKE UP ok
*DUN GET SCREW TML
*if i got a mike i will shout in your face
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*haha
True Friend Fernando says:
*DUN MEET
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
True Friend Fernando says:
*HOW CAN I DIRECT MY MESSAGE ACROSS
*wad do u wan
*NOW YOUR BRAIN SAY
*TML I GO OUT WITH THIS GUY
*I WAN KNOW HIM MORE
*I WAN SEE WHEHTER HE A NICE GUY
*DEN I GO INTO LONG TERM R/S WITH HIM
*TRUST ME
*HE WILL CONFIMR FUCK AND DUMP
*U SEE LO
*I DUN BELIEVE HE WILL LAST WITH U FOREVER
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i would not let him touch me
True Friend Fernando says:
*U SEE LA
*MR NICE GUY
*IT LIKE HE FISHING
*ONCE HE CAUGHT U IN LOVE WITH HIM
*U ARE DEAD
*U WILL DO WADEVER HE WAN FROM U
*GET READY TO BE HURT
*AND CUT YOUR WRIST
*END OF THE DAY WHO SUFFER?
*U
*FRIENDS BEING AFFECTED BY YOUR FEELING
*PARENTS COME IN COS THEY CONCERN ABOUT U
*THINK OF IT
*IS IT WORTH IT?
*MAYBE NOW U SAYING I TALKING RUBBISH
*WADEVER
*NOW U THINK U R MAKING A RIGHT CHOICE
*U KNOW WAD U DOING
*THINK AGAIN?!
True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i am thinking
True Friend Fernando says:
*FUCKING GET THIS IN YOUR MIND
*U WAN A BF?
*KNOW THEM FROM FRIEND TO FRIEND
*GO GET YOURSELF A FACEBOOK
*LET GUYS ADD U
*IN A GOOD CHANNEL
*YOUR BLOG IS SEX
*U SEE THOSE OTHER BLOGGES
*LIKE JL
*AND THE AMY
*DO U THINK THEY MEET ONLINE READERS JUST TO HAVE SEX?
*I DUN THINK THEY R CHEAPO
*SEX IS ONLY FOR A WHILE
*FOR 1 DAY
*AFTER THAT?
*THE SHUANG IS GONE
*GONE
*U FEEL EMPTY
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya
True Friend Fernando says:
*DEN
*IF U SAY TO ME
*WELL I NOT MEETING HIM
*I DUN BELIEVE U AT ALL
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya i know
True Friend Fernando says:
*I JUST SAY MY THINGS TO U
*UP TO U
*U WAN GO OUT WITH HIM
*GO LO
*DEN U FALL IN LOVE
*LIKE LAST TIME AK
*DEN U FUCKING WILL CRY
*AND FEEL SAD
*U PUT YOUR HEART INTO IT
*WILL HE APPRECAITE
*WILL HE CARE?
*HE WAN YOUR BODY
*YOUR BREAST
*YOUR WARM PUSSY
*WHERE HE CAN SHAFT HIS DICK IN
*HE WAN THE SHIOK
*NOT U SHIOK
*HUMANS ARE SELFISH
*GET THIS
*ONLY THIS WORLD
*FAMILY IS GOOD TO U
*HUSBAND AND WIFE
*GET IT
*NOT BOYFRIEND , GIRLSFRIEND
*GET IT
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*then arent u the same?
*coz u wan to meet me...
True Friend Fernando says:
*YA
*COS U DUN WAN MEET ME
*SO NOW I FUCKING SCOLDING U
*LET U KNOW WAD WE WAN
*GET IT
*WE CAN BE ONLINE FRIEND
*PHONE FRIENDS
*IT OK
*WE DUN MEET
*WE UPDATE EACH OTHER LIFE HERE
*DUN U THINK IT NICE
*IF U WAN MEET ME
*U CAN ASK YOUR FRIENDS
*I CAN ASK MY FRIEND
*WE GO OUT GROUP DATE
*BUT
*NOW WE DUN TALK ABOUT FUTURE
*WE TALK ABOUT THIS
*AFTER SO MUCH I SAY
*WAD DO U FEEL
*I CAN DUN SLEEP FOR SCH
*COS NOW I SAVING YOUR LIFE
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*zzz
*lol
*no need
*u go slp k?
*^^
True Friend Fernando says:
*OK
*U DUN SEEM TO APPRECIATE WAD I SAY
*FORGET IT
*I WAS BEING A FOOL FOR THE PAST 15 MINUTE
*ZZZZ
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i do apreciate
*really
True Friend Fernando says:
*DEN
*TELL ME WAD U FEEL
*I TALK SO MUCH
*I MUST KNOW WAD U THINKING NOW
*WAD DO U WAN
*ASK YOURSELF
*THE END RESULT I CAN GET IT IF U GO
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i want and dont want to meet him
True Friend Fernando says:
*U WILL HAVE SEX
*MORE MEETING
*OK
*TELLL ME WHY U WAN MEET HIM
*DUN SAY DUNO
*HE CONFIRM SAY SOMETHING TO U
*LEFT A BIG IMPRESSION
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*coz he is an interesting guy?
True Friend Fernando says:
*k
*respect that
*cos u have feeling
*so u think so
*u see
*last time i talk to u
*i also interesting tio bo?
*BECAUSE U KNOW Y
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*haha
*ya u are a different type of interesting guy
*lol
True Friend Fernando says:
*U KNOW WHY HE INTERESTING
*COS U NEVER SEEN HIM B4
*THERE EXCITMENT
*FRESH FEELING
*COS U ALL JUST TALK
*SO U WAN MEET HIM
*hell yeah
*i think i say the truth
*wad different type of interesting guy am i?
*care to share?
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*hmmm
*u are actually the first guy that use fucking language with me
True Friend Fernando says:
*COS I CARE
*NOT FAKE
*CARE AS A ONLINE FRIEND
*FUCKING GET IT
*GET A BF FROM FRIEND FRIEND -.-
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
So Bored and lonely
Today is sunday, and yet i am rotting inside my house.. I am so bored..... haiz... a few guys from the blog wanted to meet up with me. But I cant bring myself to meet them. I have promised myself to stop doing such stupid stuff already.. haiz....
I am so bored then even my lust is taking a day off.. T.T I cant "work up" even though I have touched all of the sensitive parts. Not even after i watch some porn... T.T Did I masturbate too much? I wonder...
Yesterday night I am a little "warm" watching a guy from web cam. lol. He is so cute.. hahaha.. He is too innocent and immature. I was lossing patient in the begining. He was damn irritating at first. Just immagine I told him that I dont want to do anything sex-related stuff with him. But he keep pestering and said how sad he was as i rejected his first time. LOL...
However, in the end i still watching him masturbate. Zzzz.. really lah... I dont feel like corrupting his innocent mind. He is younger then me... just a little bit though. He is so cute and wow.. make me really want to do it with him. His expresion when strocking his dick.. ehmm... yummy... hahaha... I refuse looking at his dick though..
Overall he is just so my type... Young and innocent, yet irriating.. I sort of had enough for this type of guys.. and want to know more mature guys... I mean hey mature guys will give out and feeling of security and yet wild..... ^^ They have known and touch with alot of stuff.. They are more knowledgable and able to take control of the situation... ^^ They know how to start and when to end... Hahaha.... When my perfect guy will appear? I am so lonely today.....
I am so bored then even my lust is taking a day off.. T.T I cant "work up" even though I have touched all of the sensitive parts. Not even after i watch some porn... T.T Did I masturbate too much? I wonder...
Yesterday night I am a little "warm" watching a guy from web cam. lol. He is so cute.. hahaha.. He is too innocent and immature. I was lossing patient in the begining. He was damn irritating at first. Just immagine I told him that I dont want to do anything sex-related stuff with him. But he keep pestering and said how sad he was as i rejected his first time. LOL...
However, in the end i still watching him masturbate. Zzzz.. really lah... I dont feel like corrupting his innocent mind. He is younger then me... just a little bit though. He is so cute and wow.. make me really want to do it with him. His expresion when strocking his dick.. ehmm... yummy... hahaha... I refuse looking at his dick though..
Overall he is just so my type... Young and innocent, yet irriating.. I sort of had enough for this type of guys.. and want to know more mature guys... I mean hey mature guys will give out and feeling of security and yet wild..... ^^ They have known and touch with alot of stuff.. They are more knowledgable and able to take control of the situation... ^^ They know how to start and when to end... Hahaha.... When my perfect guy will appear? I am so lonely today.....
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Resume
I have been very sad over AK incident. He really took me for a fucking tool only. I hate myself for missing him. I guess I am not the type that can do ONS. So i will move on to talk more about my fantasies then meeting anymore guy from the blog. So Please stop posting your request here already.
After having sex with AK. My whole body now is so sensitive. I cant forget the feeling when a dick is inside my pussy. I am not satisfied from the last meeting. My body craving for more. T.T this is so sad la.....
Despite my backache (from working part time), I have developed a routine to masturbate before I fell asleep every night and when I am half awake in the morning. This will stop my needs temporaryly.
Then I had a weird dream few days ago. I dreamed that I was a guy, some incident happened(which i forget) i end up with a girl (cannot rememeber the face, i hope its not mine). We tried to have sex, but for some reasone my penis cant erect. I even ask the girl to BJ me. But still, no result. Then I cant rememebr the rest of the dream. lol.
I ask a guy about this, and he said that this is because I really long for a huge penis. I am so disatisfy.. T.T
After having sex with AK. My whole body now is so sensitive. I cant forget the feeling when a dick is inside my pussy. I am not satisfied from the last meeting. My body craving for more. T.T this is so sad la.....
Despite my backache (from working part time), I have developed a routine to masturbate before I fell asleep every night and when I am half awake in the morning. This will stop my needs temporaryly.
Then I had a weird dream few days ago. I dreamed that I was a guy, some incident happened(which i forget) i end up with a girl (cannot rememeber the face, i hope its not mine). We tried to have sex, but for some reasone my penis cant erect. I even ask the girl to BJ me. But still, no result. Then I cant rememebr the rest of the dream. lol.
I ask a guy about this, and he said that this is because I really long for a huge penis. I am so disatisfy.. T.T
Friday, July 10, 2009
SHould i go for another guy?
I have added a few guy to my msn other then AK. and i have met this guy, J, is yet another interesting guy... But well i met AK first so yeah i met up with him and even give myself to him. I know this is a stupid act... I should have know him first before really jump into this deep hole... I should make him wait a few more months or year before give him chance.... Why am i so weak when come to this thing? Hard to say no....
I will definitely stand firm this time and will not have sex or even touch him already... see can he keep going out with me or not.... if not then yeah.. good bye to him... its not that i hate him or what but he should at least know that he is important to me and i would want him to cherish me even just for abit.....
But when i ask whether i shd meet up with another guy he just said that its up to me... he dint really care about me at all.... arghhhhh....
I think i will meet up with this J.. he is much more mature and I wont have sex with him.... I definitely wont before i know what kind of person he is....
I am so selfish and childish... =.= but i am so angry now...
I will definitely stand firm this time and will not have sex or even touch him already... see can he keep going out with me or not.... if not then yeah.. good bye to him... its not that i hate him or what but he should at least know that he is important to me and i would want him to cherish me even just for abit.....
But when i ask whether i shd meet up with another guy he just said that its up to me... he dint really care about me at all.... arghhhhh....
I think i will meet up with this J.. he is much more mature and I wont have sex with him.... I definitely wont before i know what kind of person he is....
I am so selfish and childish... =.= but i am so angry now...
stupid stupid stupid
WaWaWa..... I want to cry already.... ugh.... That AK definitely is a stupid and insensitive guy... argh~~~~~~~
Today....
After so long without sex, today finally I met this guy and have sex with him. Lets call him AK ba. Initially I don’t want to meet him, until now I still think I shd not meet him. Coz I really don’t want to get another guy just for f-ing. No point. But well in the end we still go to a hotel. Tried really hard to prevent it from happening, but I still cant get over the temptation. AK is a nice guy, so I don’t think I will be able to become his lover, the most is another player. Haiz…
It all began from few days ago. I added him in msn and we had some normal chatting. I got his msn from this blog also ^^. He called me and we have a very long talked. Yesterday when we were chatting AK kept pestering me to meet him. To know more about him, etc. Well I know that if I met him I will definitely “失身” (lose my body). But I cant deny that I really want to meet him.
First he said want to eat then go hotel. Of course I don’t want to go. I mean I really don’t want to have sex with a stranger. Then he said to only have lunch. “ONLY LUNCH”. But in the end we had lunch at food court and later on we devouring each other in the bed. How stupid I am. But I gave him really hard time to persuade me to get to hotel. Well I tried my best to prevent it. He said to relax and sit down and chat only de. Big fat liar.
When we get into the hotel we watched TV for a while, then he started to touch my breast. He even asked me “do you like my touching?” or something like that. He spoke so soft. Make me cant say no. Then he started to fondle my breast. He seem to really like them, this make me really happy. He played with my nipples and kissed me real hot. Wow.. I love this kind of kisses, so wet and hot… well our teeth bump a few times, haha.. his tongue so hot, keep playing inside my mouth.. ehmm… I like it…
However I am on period this week. So I really don’t want him to play the other part of my body.. but he is so interested in that area. T.T he stated by letting me sit on his bro.. rubbing it through my panties. He is still with his jeans on as well. That was so wrong… it made me all work up and really want to have it inside.. He promised me wont penetrate it inside. Then he started to strip. Because of my period I hvent been shaving all this while. So that area is like a cactus… but he insisted its ok and want to rub his lil bro on my area… T.T it will be pain rite.. especially on penis.. it such a sensitive part of men… I keep refusing, so he change the subject and ask me to gave him a blow job.
He praised my work again and again… he liked it when I lick his tip.. and his pre cum is so cute… ^^.. a bit salty though.. This time I do it really slow.. so I can enjoy.. kiss lightly on the shaft first.. then lick for bit… don’t put in straight into the mouth, just slowly kiss and lick first… suck a lil bit is fine also.. ^^ also played on his ball.. just use hand to slowly rub them and gently squeeze it a bit.. ^^ have to use the tongue and lick the tips.. slowly increase the movement of my tongue.. this is so nice…
Since I wont allowed him to touch my sensitive part he ask me to masturbate myself so I can feel good..of course I am all too willing to obey.. hehe I keep fingering myself.. and moaned.. I think he cant take it anymore so he make me bj him while I masturbate. Wow… this feel really good. So exciting.. but he pushed it too deep inside and made me chocked…
In the end I cant take it anymore, so I let him rub his cock on my bare pussy… at first he just rub… then he will insert a little bit inside.. it feel really good though… so I don’t mind as long he dint really put it all in… but he break the promise again. He push it all in and make my mind when blank… I cant take it.. really… its so hard and big… dont know he feel good or not… I was bellow him when he penetrate me, so he try to lift me up so we can do it on sitting position… my body betrayed me by moving it itself.. T.T but It feel damn good… arh…. So in the end we end up f-ing… T.T I was on top of him.. my fave position…
However I am really disappointed at him.. after sex we went for a drink then we go to mrt as he need to go to work. So I go home by myself. But on the way home he nvr contact me. He dint even care whether I reached home ready or not. No sms or a call… he say he wont “fuck and go” but from here I can see that he dint really care about me. I am sad.
It all began from few days ago. I added him in msn and we had some normal chatting. I got his msn from this blog also ^^. He called me and we have a very long talked. Yesterday when we were chatting AK kept pestering me to meet him. To know more about him, etc. Well I know that if I met him I will definitely “失身” (lose my body). But I cant deny that I really want to meet him.
First he said want to eat then go hotel. Of course I don’t want to go. I mean I really don’t want to have sex with a stranger. Then he said to only have lunch. “ONLY LUNCH”. But in the end we had lunch at food court and later on we devouring each other in the bed. How stupid I am. But I gave him really hard time to persuade me to get to hotel. Well I tried my best to prevent it. He said to relax and sit down and chat only de. Big fat liar.
When we get into the hotel we watched TV for a while, then he started to touch my breast. He even asked me “do you like my touching?” or something like that. He spoke so soft. Make me cant say no. Then he started to fondle my breast. He seem to really like them, this make me really happy. He played with my nipples and kissed me real hot. Wow.. I love this kind of kisses, so wet and hot… well our teeth bump a few times, haha.. his tongue so hot, keep playing inside my mouth.. ehmm… I like it…
However I am on period this week. So I really don’t want him to play the other part of my body.. but he is so interested in that area. T.T he stated by letting me sit on his bro.. rubbing it through my panties. He is still with his jeans on as well. That was so wrong… it made me all work up and really want to have it inside.. He promised me wont penetrate it inside. Then he started to strip. Because of my period I hvent been shaving all this while. So that area is like a cactus… but he insisted its ok and want to rub his lil bro on my area… T.T it will be pain rite.. especially on penis.. it such a sensitive part of men… I keep refusing, so he change the subject and ask me to gave him a blow job.
He praised my work again and again… he liked it when I lick his tip.. and his pre cum is so cute… ^^.. a bit salty though.. This time I do it really slow.. so I can enjoy.. kiss lightly on the shaft first.. then lick for bit… don’t put in straight into the mouth, just slowly kiss and lick first… suck a lil bit is fine also.. ^^ also played on his ball.. just use hand to slowly rub them and gently squeeze it a bit.. ^^ have to use the tongue and lick the tips.. slowly increase the movement of my tongue.. this is so nice…
Since I wont allowed him to touch my sensitive part he ask me to masturbate myself so I can feel good..of course I am all too willing to obey.. hehe I keep fingering myself.. and moaned.. I think he cant take it anymore so he make me bj him while I masturbate. Wow… this feel really good. So exciting.. but he pushed it too deep inside and made me chocked…
In the end I cant take it anymore, so I let him rub his cock on my bare pussy… at first he just rub… then he will insert a little bit inside.. it feel really good though… so I don’t mind as long he dint really put it all in… but he break the promise again. He push it all in and make my mind when blank… I cant take it.. really… its so hard and big… dont know he feel good or not… I was bellow him when he penetrate me, so he try to lift me up so we can do it on sitting position… my body betrayed me by moving it itself.. T.T but It feel damn good… arh…. So in the end we end up f-ing… T.T I was on top of him.. my fave position…
However I am really disappointed at him.. after sex we went for a drink then we go to mrt as he need to go to work. So I go home by myself. But on the way home he nvr contact me. He dint even care whether I reached home ready or not. No sms or a call… he say he wont “fuck and go” but from here I can see that he dint really care about me. I am sad.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Cumming?
www.efukt.com/2105_How_To_Make_A_Girl_Cum.html
I saw this link in JL's blog.. That kind of cum really makes a girl go crazy... i would love to try it...
I saw this link in JL's blog.. That kind of cum really makes a girl go crazy... i would love to try it...
I hate myself...
Wow I just realise that are so many good blog about sex around.. Alot of them were writen so good it makes me really depress.. LOL.. Some of the blogs offers stories. Some of them offers technique so success in sex life...
It gives me a real insight... It suddenly make me feel not worth it to keep this blog.. But then again this blog is for me to vent out... So I dont really need to care what other people might think of me.. Isnt it...
I am just a lonely girl deep down here.. So fragile and easily broken.. Yet I try to be strong and stay as innocent as possible.. This is tiring... My low self esteem always pull me back in doing what I want.. I am so wated right now.. All of the stories I have share so far are from my experiences... Sooner or later I will run out of materials to write...
However the vain in me, the green monster in me are reacting so strongly that i want people to keep admiring me.. even it just in virtual world. I am definitely the stupidest and ugliest woman known in history...
Now I am writing here.. seeking for comfort... this makes me real weak... I hate this kind of people the most.. and I am one of it...
It gives me a real insight... It suddenly make me feel not worth it to keep this blog.. But then again this blog is for me to vent out... So I dont really need to care what other people might think of me.. Isnt it...
I am just a lonely girl deep down here.. So fragile and easily broken.. Yet I try to be strong and stay as innocent as possible.. This is tiring... My low self esteem always pull me back in doing what I want.. I am so wated right now.. All of the stories I have share so far are from my experiences... Sooner or later I will run out of materials to write...
However the vain in me, the green monster in me are reacting so strongly that i want people to keep admiring me.. even it just in virtual world. I am definitely the stupidest and ugliest woman known in history...
Now I am writing here.. seeking for comfort... this makes me real weak... I hate this kind of people the most.. and I am one of it...
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Cam Sex
Have any of you guys try cam sex? Using msn or yahoo, you will let people see the private parts of you. Do what people ask you to...
I have alot of it last time... Accepting request for all sort of people...
Some guys will want to see an up close of my pussy.. Some guy will ask me shave infront of him.. Somw will ask me to stuff in toys into my pussy or ass hole...
But as you all know.. I dont have toys.. then they will ask me to use cucumber or banana. When I show them how I masturbate using my fingers... they will ask for more fingers into my pussy... Starting with one... then 2... 3,4,5,6,7..... i almost cant take it anymore... all of my finggers are already inside... and i used both of my hands.. my pussy fell so painfull.. but i like taking this kind of order.... it push me to my limit...
Then there is a time I met a bisex online.. and guess what.. he actuallu show me how he was fucking himself using a cucumber with condom. I saw him keep doing it.. and his penis just so cool... keep wobbling up and down... like a rubber... and ofcourse i dont want to lose to him.. so i show him how i tease my nipples... using fingers... twist it... or using my tounge.. even though i cant lick my nipples but i can still hold up my breast and lick it... hahaha...
I met alot of people from different nationality.... One of my best partner is from taiwan... He is just so my type... not so skinny.. funny.. large penis.. know how to sweet talk.. know how to take order.. and know how to stir up my desire... I still have his contact on my phone even though i stop having it with him...
sometimes in the night i will start to fantasy about him.. he is such a cute boy...
I rememeber once i met a guy that have this fetish of wearing a woman g-string...
that is so funny... his cock is big enough that panties can only cover half of it.
then the string will eat up his ass... he seem to be in pain.. be he said he enjoy it... he also have bra... haha a red and black one...
There are alot of this kind of guy in india... zzz alot of them are from india.. and man thay are old.... I hate them coz they are just so low class... they make me feel so dirty... and i hate those feeling...
Even though i am a girl that like notti things in sex... but i cant understand how they did it that make me feel so disgusting....
There were time where i met a 12 yrs old boy... ow man he is cute.. but hmm... fucking horny as well... but too bad i dont have any interest in having sex with boy that less then 15 yrs old... that have not fully develope yet and i dont want to spoilt them.... ^^ i am nice afterall wahaha...
I have alot of it last time... Accepting request for all sort of people...
Some guys will want to see an up close of my pussy.. Some guy will ask me shave infront of him.. Somw will ask me to stuff in toys into my pussy or ass hole...
But as you all know.. I dont have toys.. then they will ask me to use cucumber or banana. When I show them how I masturbate using my fingers... they will ask for more fingers into my pussy... Starting with one... then 2... 3,4,5,6,7..... i almost cant take it anymore... all of my finggers are already inside... and i used both of my hands.. my pussy fell so painfull.. but i like taking this kind of order.... it push me to my limit...
Then there is a time I met a bisex online.. and guess what.. he actuallu show me how he was fucking himself using a cucumber with condom. I saw him keep doing it.. and his penis just so cool... keep wobbling up and down... like a rubber... and ofcourse i dont want to lose to him.. so i show him how i tease my nipples... using fingers... twist it... or using my tounge.. even though i cant lick my nipples but i can still hold up my breast and lick it... hahaha...
I met alot of people from different nationality.... One of my best partner is from taiwan... He is just so my type... not so skinny.. funny.. large penis.. know how to sweet talk.. know how to take order.. and know how to stir up my desire... I still have his contact on my phone even though i stop having it with him...
sometimes in the night i will start to fantasy about him.. he is such a cute boy...
I rememeber once i met a guy that have this fetish of wearing a woman g-string...
that is so funny... his cock is big enough that panties can only cover half of it.
then the string will eat up his ass... he seem to be in pain.. be he said he enjoy it... he also have bra... haha a red and black one...
There are alot of this kind of guy in india... zzz alot of them are from india.. and man thay are old.... I hate them coz they are just so low class... they make me feel so dirty... and i hate those feeling...
Even though i am a girl that like notti things in sex... but i cant understand how they did it that make me feel so disgusting....
There were time where i met a 12 yrs old boy... ow man he is cute.. but hmm... fucking horny as well... but too bad i dont have any interest in having sex with boy that less then 15 yrs old... that have not fully develope yet and i dont want to spoilt them.... ^^ i am nice afterall wahaha...
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