What am i thinking?

I am getting ready. Bathed, Clothed, Hair done, clothes nice. Perfume, should i put some blusher, how about eye shadow.. will he notice?

oh, its my phone.. he is already reach.. downs stair... should i go down meet him? or should i ask him to come out? i don't like outside.. but he promise to bring me out today.. a little excited actually. Hmm never mind, just ask him come up first.

He is in my door way, i open the door, welcome him. i cant wait for him to settle down, i hugged him.. so tightly.. he hug me back.. so gentle.. i like his smell.. he walking toward my bed while i closed the door behind me..

i walk towards him, slowly, placing myself into his hug.. he smell nice... he hugged me back.. and ask how am i? he is concern about me.. we update each other alot.. he is sweet.. and sometime i just like to tease him..

Then he will start to do weird thing.. he will start with touching my breast. He like them.. fondle them.. he will always try to take out my clothes.. i will resist.. almost every time... he will play with my nipple.. he know that this will turn me on.. almost every time...

i will turn around to kiss him, and he will kiss me back.. some times gentle, sometimes forceful, sometimes playful.. i like to taste him especially after he took some beer. it taste so sweet ans cold.. i will lick his lips and tongue... he will play with me too. or some times just a simple but fun kiss on the lips.. no tongue involve.. a very dry kiss.. but fun..

then I'll lay down on bed, back facing him, out of shyness or just playful. he will follow me down, putting his hands on my shirt grouping my breast.. it was fun though. he will then ley down on the bed and start nibbling my tits.. ehmm... nice..

After laying down, for some reasons, my head will end up bellow his belly, he Will ask me to suck on his cock.. of course i'll do it.. i'll do a very good job on it... kissing, sucking, playing it with my tongue, stroking it with my hands.... make it hard and wet.. he will be unable to take it, and undress me completely.

He like it in cow girl position, whenever i am on top he will push me to sit straight up. and we will fuck that way.. it is fun, but i prefer if i could lay down with him, and he can kiss me while i fuck him hard and nice...

After that he will change to normal position where he is on top, this is where he want to cum.. he will fuck me real hard and his expression is so nice... he will keep pumping and pumping.. until he cannot take it anymore. he will ask me can he cum inside of me, i'll say no, no one ever cum inside of me... i cant let him do this, what if i am pregnant? i dont want to kill innocent..

He then will cum outside, or in my mouth.. every time i'll think should i swallow it? maybe not.. maybe yes... i dont know if i swallow it will it make him happy or not.. after that we will bathe.. together, and he will again touch me here and there...sometime he will penetrate me again, sometime he will just be too tired..

we will rest awhile on my bed, and we will talk abit here and there, and he will say its time. i am sad.. but ne needs to go, he will put up his clothes, wear his pants, and i;ll just put up a tshirt over me. he will walk towards the door and i gave him my last hug.. a very long hug, he will kiss me.. the last kiss.. i will send him to the door, he will go, he needs to go and i need to let him. There is someone else waiting for him, and i am not allowed to disturb the relationship they had and she will never know the existence of me...

Sad Post

I am extremely sad now. I finally realise that this world can still go around even thought you have one less person in your life. You think that u need him and cant live without him. But this is wrong..

The world still going on.
Even though the heart feels pain, you are still breathing.
Even though your eyes are crying, You are still breathing.
You can live without him.

Even though its colder after knowing his warm,
Even though its more silent after his laughter,
Its a cold you can live with, Its a silent you can bare.

So, you dont need him, dont cry over him,
Dont believe in him, dont long for him,
Dont wish for him. He will not come.

He does not belong to you,
You are nothing but a toy to him,
He will find you when he needs you,
But when u need him, you cant tell him.

Do not ever tell him that u need him,
You are nothing but a bother when u did that,
And you cant be so selfish.
He has a life he had to live,
You are not in that life.

So learn to live without him,
Try to dry up your tears,
Keep suppressing the pain,
One day you will be able to do it.
And the pain will be gone.

A Dick In A Box - Justin Timberlake

A song by Justin Timberlake
Anyone try this before?
What will u do if someone did this to you?

A Dick In A Box
Hey girl, I got somethin' real important to give you
So just sit down and listen
Girl you know we've been together such a long, long time (such a long time)
And now I'm ready to lay it on the line
(Wooow) You know it's Christmas and my heart is open wide (open wide)
Gonna give you something so you know what's on my mind (what is on my mind)
A gift real special, so take off the top
Take a look inside -- it's my dick in a box (it's in a box)
Not gonna get you a diamond ring
That sort of gift don't mean anything
Not gonna get you a fancy car
Girl ya gotta know you're my shining star
Not gonna get you a house in the hills
A girl like you needs somethin' real
Wanna get you somethin' from the heart
Somethin' special girl
It's my dick in a box, my dick in a box girl
It's my dick in a box, my dick in a box girl
See I'm wise enough to know when a gift needs givin' (girl)
And I got just the one, somethin' to show ya that you are second to none
To all the fellas out there with ladies to impress
It's easy to do just follow these steps
1: Cut a hole in a box
2: Put your junk in that box
3: Make her open the box
And that's the way you do it
It's my dick in a box...my dick in a box girl
It's my dick in a box, my dick in a box girl
Christmas; dick in a box
Hanukkah; dick in a box
Kwanzaa; a dick in a box
Every single holiday a dick in a box
Over at your parent's house a dick in a box
Mid day at the grocery store a dick in a box
Backstage at the CMA's a dick in a box (yeah-wow-wow-wow-wow-wow)
A dick in a box, a dick in a box, a dick in a box...