From a Real Friend^^

Bellow are the conversation happen 2 days before where I suddently decided to meet another guy. Then yeah I told Ronaldo and this was his response.. Funny.. ^^ He meant good though.. ^^

Its abit long lah.. ahahahahha


True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*still dont wan slp?

True Friend Fernando says:
*FUCKING DUN EVER LET ME KNOW U GO OUT WITH OTHER GUYS

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*why le?

True Friend Fernando says:
*i will get disappointed in u

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
True Friend Fernando says:
*cos u fucking make yourself a fucking promise
*FULFILL IT

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*then u have to be dissapointed in me now

True Friend Fernando says:
*if u wan sex
*go masterbaute yourself
*wtf

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i already decided o go out with some one tomr

True Friend Fernando says:
*wtf u do now?
*why
*u are going to be in damm deep trouble
*fucking wakeup

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*so u will b dissapointed in me?

True Friend Fernando says:
*dun get fuck again
*hell yeah
*dam

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*good

True Friend Fernando says:
*fuck
*u like it right
*den your life
*u choose it
*i cannot do anything
*DAMM FUCKING SIAN
*SIAN!!!!!

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya
*same
*sian

True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)

True Friend Fernando says:
*WHY U GO OUT WITH HIM
*i fucking free
*u dun wan me
*u choose another guy
*i piss off with him
*he took over me

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*too bad

True Friend Fernando says:
*to go out with u

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*it already deicided

True Friend Fernando says:
*why
*why
*why why
*u wan sex with him?

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*no i don’t

True Friend Fernando says:
*den y meet?

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*dont know

True Friend Fernando says:
*y put yourself at risk
*u putting yourself at risk
*DO U FUCKING UNDERSTAND?
*Y U WAN TO HURT YOURSELF

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i am bored and useless

True Friend Fernando says:
*Y U WAN TO STEP INTO A RELATIONSHIP USING THIS SEX CHANNEL
*FUCKING WAKEUP

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya
*agree

True Friend Fernando says:
*U WILLL DAMM REGRET OK

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*its not possible

True Friend Fernando says:
*IF HE FUCKING TOUCH U
*U IN HEAVEN
*DEN U ARE GONE
*NO ONE CAN PULL U BACK
*NOT EVEN ME

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*same
*haiz

True Friend Fernando says:
*FUCK LA U
*I FUCKING DULAN

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i have the same feeling

True Friend Fernando says:
*GIVE U MY NUMBER
*U DUN WAN TAKE
*SHOW U MY FACE LIAO
*I WAN FRIEND U
*U DUN WAN ME
*FUCK LO

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*hmmm


True Friend Fernando says:
*I FUCKING SINCERE LO
*IF I FUCKING DO ANYTHING
*U CAN CALLL POLICE OR WAD
*I DARE TO GIVE U MY WORKPLACE
*ADDRESS OR WADEVER LO
*JUST TO PROVE TO U
*THAT I WAN TO BE FRIEND
*FUCKING DUN GO OUT LA
*WAH LAU
*LAST TIME U TELL ME
*WHY U DID ALL THIS
*NOT BECAUSE U USELESS
*JUST BECAUSE A WORD BORED
*BORED RUIN YOUR LIFE
*DUN LET IT ENTER U

True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*haiz
*i also dont wan
*lol

True Friend Fernando says:
*DEN
*########
*FUCKING CALL ME
*WE TALK

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*huh

True Friend Fernando says:
*I DUN WAN TALK DIRTY

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*dont wan

True Friend Fernando says:
*DUN LIKE THAT
*I REALLY WAN KNOW

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i am not good at fucking talk

True Friend Fernando says:
*-.-
*JUST TALK
*GIVE ME A CHANCE
*I WON DO ANYTHING
*PLEASE
*TRUST ME
*NOW GOING 3AM
*TML I GOT SCH
*I STILL NOT SLEEP
*I WAN TALK TO U
*JUST TALK
*NOTHING WRONG
*PLEASRE

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*dont wan

True Friend Fernando says:
*I TRY SO HARD TO HAVE YOUR NUMBER

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*go slp

True Friend Fernando says:
*OK
*FINE
*I FUCKING CHEE BYE GIVE UP
*KNN

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh

True Friend Fernando says:
*U FUCKING MAKE ME ANGRY

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*finally give up?

True Friend Fernando says:
*yes

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*good for u
*i am not a decent girl
*lol
*dont waste your time on me

True Friend Fernando says:
*den u fucking putting yourself at risk
*by going out with him
*he fucking know how to talk to u care about u
*den your mind dunno how to think?
*if your parents know
*your bestie know
*they will fucking be shocked
*and think that u are stupid

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*definitely

True Friend Fernando says:
*DEN
*why u wan to do this
*just because
*i am bored
*i need sex
*i am horny
*fuck u la seriously
*u say u only wan to do with your bf?
*ok i respect
*den now u going out with ihm
**him
*if there no people around
*that guy will hold your hand
*hug u
*SERIOUS
*i am a guy
*i know wad going to happen
*-.-
*FUCK HIM man!
*-.-
*:@
*i say wadever shit i have in my mind
*if u feel offended
*den ...

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*haiz
*i know
*i understand

True Friend Fernando says:
*u dun haiz in front of me
*IF U understand u won do this
*give me your number u dun wan
*nbcb sia
*i dunno wad the fuck is wrong with u
*fucking wad the fuck is wrong with u !

True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*everything is wrong with me
*so just give up

True Friend Fernando says:
*ok
*k
*u are hurting yourself

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i know

True Friend Fernando says:
*get a condom ready tml

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i will not do it with him


True Friend Fernando says:
*believe me
*things happen fast
*u won anticipate it
*it just come
*and u will be caught unexpected
*fuck u seriously
*u r makiing me disappointed
*fuck that guy also
*help me punch his face
*count me in

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
*ok
*i will punch him tmr
*^^
*hahaha

True Friend Fernando says:
*i now talking thinks to u
*hahahah ^^
*still reply HAHHA ^^
*u how old
*20 year old liao
*same as me
*have sex with random bastards
*if u tio hiv
*aids
*u will fucking wake up
*from your nightmare

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya

True Friend Fernando says:
*u can block and delete me
*if u wan
*i fucking scold u
*i know u buay song liao
*i prepare to get block

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
*i wont la
*^^

True Friend Fernando says:
*wadever la ok
Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ok

True Friend Fernando says:
*your blog make your life a shit

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya
*by knowing u

True Friend Fernando says:
*by knowing me?
*heng i not touching u
*i did not spoilt your life
*those guys did

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*^^

True Friend Fernando says:
*it not my business anymore
*i'm out of it

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh
*i nvr ask u to come in

True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*huh?

True Friend Fernando says:
*WAKE UP ok
*DUN GET SCREW TML
*if i got a mike i will shout in your face

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*haha

True Friend Fernando says:
*DUN MEET

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*oh

True Friend Fernando says:
*HOW CAN I DIRECT MY MESSAGE ACROSS
*wad do u wan
*NOW YOUR BRAIN SAY
*TML I GO OUT WITH THIS GUY
*I WAN KNOW HIM MORE
*I WAN SEE WHEHTER HE A NICE GUY
*DEN I GO INTO LONG TERM R/S WITH HIM
*TRUST ME
*HE WILL CONFIMR FUCK AND DUMP
*U SEE LO
*I DUN BELIEVE HE WILL LAST WITH U FOREVER

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i would not let him touch me

True Friend Fernando says:
*U SEE LA
*MR NICE GUY
*IT LIKE HE FISHING
*ONCE HE CAUGHT U IN LOVE WITH HIM
*U ARE DEAD
*U WILL DO WADEVER HE WAN FROM U
*GET READY TO BE HURT
*AND CUT YOUR WRIST
*END OF THE DAY WHO SUFFER?
*U
*FRIENDS BEING AFFECTED BY YOUR FEELING
*PARENTS COME IN COS THEY CONCERN ABOUT U
*THINK OF IT
*IS IT WORTH IT?
*MAYBE NOW U SAYING I TALKING RUBBISH
*WADEVER
*NOW U THINK U R MAKING A RIGHT CHOICE
*U KNOW WAD U DOING
*THINK AGAIN?!

True Friend Fernando just sent you a nudge.
* (Nudge)

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i am thinking

True Friend Fernando says:
*FUCKING GET THIS IN YOUR MIND
*U WAN A BF?
*KNOW THEM FROM FRIEND TO FRIEND
*GO GET YOURSELF A FACEBOOK
*LET GUYS ADD U
*IN A GOOD CHANNEL
*YOUR BLOG IS SEX
*U SEE THOSE OTHER BLOGGES
*LIKE JL
*AND THE AMY
*DO U THINK THEY MEET ONLINE READERS JUST TO HAVE SEX?
*I DUN THINK THEY R CHEAPO
*SEX IS ONLY FOR A WHILE
*FOR 1 DAY
*AFTER THAT?
*THE SHUANG IS GONE
*GONE
*U FEEL EMPTY

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya

True Friend Fernando says:
*DEN
*IF U SAY TO ME
*WELL I NOT MEETING HIM
*I DUN BELIEVE U AT ALL

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*ya i know

True Friend Fernando says:
*I JUST SAY MY THINGS TO U
*UP TO U
*U WAN GO OUT WITH HIM
*GO LO
*DEN U FALL IN LOVE
*LIKE LAST TIME AK
*DEN U FUCKING WILL CRY
*AND FEEL SAD
*U PUT YOUR HEART INTO IT
*WILL HE APPRECAITE
*WILL HE CARE?
*HE WAN YOUR BODY
*YOUR BREAST
*YOUR WARM PUSSY
*WHERE HE CAN SHAFT HIS DICK IN
*HE WAN THE SHIOK
*NOT U SHIOK
*HUMANS ARE SELFISH
*GET THIS
*ONLY THIS WORLD
*FAMILY IS GOOD TO U
*HUSBAND AND WIFE
*GET IT
*NOT BOYFRIEND , GIRLSFRIEND
*GET IT

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*then arent u the same?
*coz u wan to meet me...

True Friend Fernando says:
*YA
*COS U DUN WAN MEET ME
*SO NOW I FUCKING SCOLDING U
*LET U KNOW WAD WE WAN
*GET IT
*WE CAN BE ONLINE FRIEND
*PHONE FRIENDS
*IT OK
*WE DUN MEET
*WE UPDATE EACH OTHER LIFE HERE
*DUN U THINK IT NICE
*IF U WAN MEET ME
*U CAN ASK YOUR FRIENDS
*I CAN ASK MY FRIEND
*WE GO OUT GROUP DATE
*BUT
*NOW WE DUN TALK ABOUT FUTURE
*WE TALK ABOUT THIS
*AFTER SO MUCH I SAY
*WAD DO U FEEL
*I CAN DUN SLEEP FOR SCH
*COS NOW I SAVING YOUR LIFE

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*zzz
*lol
*no need
*u go slp k?
*^^

True Friend Fernando says:
*OK
*U DUN SEEM TO APPRECIATE WAD I SAY
*FORGET IT
*I WAS BEING A FOOL FOR THE PAST 15 MINUTE
*ZZZZ

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i do apreciate
*really

True Friend Fernando says:
*DEN
*TELL ME WAD U FEEL
*I TALK SO MUCH
*I MUST KNOW WAD U THINKING NOW
*WAD DO U WAN
*ASK YOURSELF
*THE END RESULT I CAN GET IT IF U GO

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*i want and dont want to meet him

True Friend Fernando says:
*U WILL HAVE SEX
*MORE MEETING
*OK
*TELLL ME WHY U WAN MEET HIM
*DUN SAY DUNO
*HE CONFIRM SAY SOMETHING TO U
*LEFT A BIG IMPRESSION

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*coz he is an interesting guy?

True Friend Fernando says:
*k
*respect that
*cos u have feeling
*so u think so
*u see
*last time i talk to u
*i also interesting tio bo?
*BECAUSE U KNOW Y

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*haha
*ya u are a different type of interesting guy
*lol

True Friend Fernando says:
*U KNOW WHY HE INTERESTING
*COS U NEVER SEEN HIM B4
*THERE EXCITMENT
*FRESH FEELING
*COS U ALL JUST TALK
*SO U WAN MEET HIM
*hell yeah
*i think i say the truth
*wad different type of interesting guy am i?
*care to share?

Confusing:: Fantasy Might Varies~~ says:
*hmmm
*u are actually the first guy that use fucking language with me

True Friend Fernando says:
*COS I CARE
*NOT FAKE
*CARE AS A ONLINE FRIEND
*FUCKING GET IT
*GET A BF FROM FRIEND FRIEND -.-

So Bored and lonely

Today is sunday, and yet i am rotting inside my house.. I am so bored..... haiz... a few guys from the blog wanted to meet up with me. But I cant bring myself to meet them. I have promised myself to stop doing such stupid stuff already.. haiz....

I am so bored then even my lust is taking a day off.. T.T I cant "work up" even though I have touched all of the sensitive parts. Not even after i watch some porn... T.T Did I masturbate too much? I wonder...

Yesterday night I am a little "warm" watching a guy from web cam. lol. He is so cute.. hahaha.. He is too innocent and immature. I was lossing patient in the begining. He was damn irritating at first. Just immagine I told him that I dont want to do anything sex-related stuff with him. But he keep pestering and said how sad he was as i rejected his first time. LOL...

However, in the end i still watching him masturbate. Zzzz.. really lah... I dont feel like corrupting his innocent mind. He is younger then me... just a little bit though. He is so cute and wow.. make me really want to do it with him. His expresion when strocking his dick.. ehmm... yummy... hahaha... I refuse looking at his dick though..

Overall he is just so my type... Young and innocent, yet irriating.. I sort of had enough for this type of guys.. and want to know more mature guys... I mean hey mature guys will give out and feeling of security and yet wild..... ^^ They have known and touch with alot of stuff.. They are more knowledgable and able to take control of the situation... ^^ They know how to start and when to end... Hahaha.... When my perfect guy will appear? I am so lonely today.....

Resume

I have been very sad over AK incident. He really took me for a fucking tool only. I hate myself for missing him. I guess I am not the type that can do ONS. So i will move on to talk more about my fantasies then meeting anymore guy from the blog. So Please stop posting your request here already.

After having sex with AK. My whole body now is so sensitive. I cant forget the feeling when a dick is inside my pussy. I am not satisfied from the last meeting. My body craving for more. T.T this is so sad la.....

Despite my backache (from working part time), I have developed a routine to masturbate before I fell asleep every night and when I am half awake in the morning. This will stop my needs temporaryly.

Then I had a weird dream few days ago. I dreamed that I was a guy, some incident happened(which i forget) i end up with a girl (cannot rememeber the face, i hope its not mine). We tried to have sex, but for some reasone my penis cant erect. I even ask the girl to BJ me. But still, no result. Then I cant rememebr the rest of the dream. lol.

I ask a guy about this, and he said that this is because I really long for a huge penis. I am so disatisfy.. T.T

SHould i go for another guy?

I have added a few guy to my msn other then AK. and i have met this guy, J, is yet another interesting guy... But well i met AK first so yeah i met up with him and even give myself to him. I know this is a stupid act... I should have know him first before really jump into this deep hole... I should make him wait a few more months or year before give him chance.... Why am i so weak when come to this thing? Hard to say no....

I will definitely stand firm this time and will not have sex or even touch him already... see can he keep going out with me or not.... if not then yeah.. good bye to him... its not that i hate him or what but he should at least know that he is important to me and i would want him to cherish me even just for abit.....

But when i ask whether i shd meet up with another guy he just said that its up to me... he dint really care about me at all.... arghhhhh....

I think i will meet up with this J.. he is much more mature and I wont have sex with him.... I definitely wont before i know what kind of person he is....

I am so selfish and childish... =.= but i am so angry now...

stupid stupid stupid

WaWaWa..... I want to cry already.... ugh.... That AK definitely is a stupid and insensitive guy... argh~~~~~~~

Today....

After so long without sex, today finally I met this guy and have sex with him. Lets call him AK ba. Initially I don’t want to meet him, until now I still think I shd not meet him. Coz I really don’t want to get another guy just for f-ing. No point. But well in the end we still go to a hotel. Tried really hard to prevent it from happening, but I still cant get over the temptation. AK is a nice guy, so I don’t think I will be able to become his lover, the most is another player. Haiz…

It all began from few days ago. I added him in msn and we had some normal chatting. I got his msn from this blog also ^^. He called me and we have a very long talked. Yesterday when we were chatting AK kept pestering me to meet him. To know more about him, etc. Well I know that if I met him I will definitely “失身” (lose my body). But I cant deny that I really want to meet him.

First he said want to eat then go hotel. Of course I don’t want to go. I mean I really don’t want to have sex with a stranger. Then he said to only have lunch. “ONLY LUNCH”. But in the end we had lunch at food court and later on we devouring each other in the bed. How stupid I am. But I gave him really hard time to persuade me to get to hotel. Well I tried my best to prevent it. He said to relax and sit down and chat only de. Big fat liar.

When we get into the hotel we watched TV for a while, then he started to touch my breast. He even asked me “do you like my touching?” or something like that. He spoke so soft. Make me cant say no. Then he started to fondle my breast. He seem to really like them, this make me really happy. He played with my nipples and kissed me real hot. Wow.. I love this kind of kisses, so wet and hot… well our teeth bump a few times, haha.. his tongue so hot, keep playing inside my mouth.. ehmm… I like it…

However I am on period this week. So I really don’t want him to play the other part of my body.. but he is so interested in that area. T.T he stated by letting me sit on his bro.. rubbing it through my panties. He is still with his jeans on as well. That was so wrong… it made me all work up and really want to have it inside.. He promised me wont penetrate it inside. Then he started to strip. Because of my period I hvent been shaving all this while. So that area is like a cactus… but he insisted its ok and want to rub his lil bro on my area… T.T it will be pain rite.. especially on penis.. it such a sensitive part of men… I keep refusing, so he change the subject and ask me to gave him a blow job.

He praised my work again and again… he liked it when I lick his tip.. and his pre cum is so cute… ^^.. a bit salty though.. This time I do it really slow.. so I can enjoy.. kiss lightly on the shaft first.. then lick for bit… don’t put in straight into the mouth, just slowly kiss and lick first… suck a lil bit is fine also.. ^^ also played on his ball.. just use hand to slowly rub them and gently squeeze it a bit.. ^^ have to use the tongue and lick the tips.. slowly increase the movement of my tongue.. this is so nice…

Since I wont allowed him to touch my sensitive part he ask me to masturbate myself so I can feel good..of course I am all too willing to obey.. hehe I keep fingering myself.. and moaned.. I think he cant take it anymore so he make me bj him while I masturbate. Wow… this feel really good. So exciting.. but he pushed it too deep inside and made me chocked…

In the end I cant take it anymore, so I let him rub his cock on my bare pussy… at first he just rub… then he will insert a little bit inside.. it feel really good though… so I don’t mind as long he dint really put it all in… but he break the promise again. He push it all in and make my mind when blank… I cant take it.. really… its so hard and big… dont know he feel good or not… I was bellow him when he penetrate me, so he try to lift me up so we can do it on sitting position… my body betrayed me by moving it itself.. T.T but It feel damn good… arh…. So in the end we end up f-ing… T.T I was on top of him.. my fave position…

However I am really disappointed at him.. after sex we went for a drink then we go to mrt as he need to go to work. So I go home by myself. But on the way home he nvr contact me. He dint even care whether I reached home ready or not. No sms or a call… he say he wont “fuck and go” but from here I can see that he dint really care about me. I am sad.

Cumming?

www.efukt.com/2105_How_To_Make_A_Girl_Cum.html

I saw this link in JL's blog.. That kind of cum really makes a girl go crazy... i would love to try it...

I hate myself...

Wow I just realise that are so many good blog about sex around.. Alot of them were writen so good it makes me really depress.. LOL.. Some of the blogs offers stories. Some of them offers technique so success in sex life...
It gives me a real insight... It suddenly make me feel not worth it to keep this blog.. But then again this blog is for me to vent out... So I dont really need to care what other people might think of me.. Isnt it...

I am just a lonely girl deep down here.. So fragile and easily broken.. Yet I try to be strong and stay as innocent as possible.. This is tiring... My low self esteem always pull me back in doing what I want.. I am so wated right now.. All of the stories I have share so far are from my experiences... Sooner or later I will run out of materials to write...

However the vain in me, the green monster in me are reacting so strongly that i want people to keep admiring me.. even it just in virtual world. I am definitely the stupidest and ugliest woman known in history...

Now I am writing here.. seeking for comfort... this makes me real weak... I hate this kind of people the most.. and I am one of it...

Cam Sex

Have any of you guys try cam sex? Using msn or yahoo, you will let people see the private parts of you. Do what people ask you to...
I have alot of it last time... Accepting request for all sort of people...
Some guys will want to see an up close of my pussy.. Some guy will ask me shave infront of him.. Somw will ask me to stuff in toys into my pussy or ass hole...
But as you all know.. I dont have toys.. then they will ask me to use cucumber or banana. When I show them how I masturbate using my fingers... they will ask for more fingers into my pussy... Starting with one... then 2... 3,4,5,6,7..... i almost cant take it anymore... all of my finggers are already inside... and i used both of my hands.. my pussy fell so painfull.. but i like taking this kind of order.... it push me to my limit...

Then there is a time I met a bisex online.. and guess what.. he actuallu show me how he was fucking himself using a cucumber with condom. I saw him keep doing it.. and his penis just so cool... keep wobbling up and down... like a rubber... and ofcourse i dont want to lose to him.. so i show him how i tease my nipples... using fingers... twist it... or using my tounge.. even though i cant lick my nipples but i can still hold up my breast and lick it... hahaha...

I met alot of people from different nationality.... One of my best partner is from taiwan... He is just so my type... not so skinny.. funny.. large penis.. know how to sweet talk.. know how to take order.. and know how to stir up my desire... I still have his contact on my phone even though i stop having it with him...
sometimes in the night i will start to fantasy about him.. he is such a cute boy...

I rememeber once i met a guy that have this fetish of wearing a woman g-string...
that is so funny... his cock is big enough that panties can only cover half of it.
then the string will eat up his ass... he seem to be in pain.. be he said he enjoy it... he also have bra... haha a red and black one...

There are alot of this kind of guy in india... zzz alot of them are from india.. and man thay are old.... I hate them coz they are just so low class... they make me feel so dirty... and i hate those feeling...
Even though i am a girl that like notti things in sex... but i cant understand how they did it that make me feel so disgusting....

There were time where i met a 12 yrs old boy... ow man he is cute.. but hmm... fucking horny as well... but too bad i dont have any interest in having sex with boy that less then 15 yrs old... that have not fully develope yet and i dont want to spoilt them.... ^^ i am nice afterall wahaha...

A Buddy?

I am thinking of getting a buddy that could do nasty stuff with me ^^
But it is so hard to pass my own feeling and conscience to get one.
I am way to rational to do these kind of stuffs.... I wish that i can just let go..
Let me see.. if i wan to get a sex buddy.. hmmmm
1. he have to be normal person...
2. i dont like guys that are too skinny....
3. age between 20 to 30 is acceptable...
4. he must not have girlfriend/wife
5. He must be healthy.... and only devoted to me.. haha

well these few condition is not that bad rite..... actually i wan try to have sex in the car...
So if that guy have car... it will be even better... isn't it?? but well thats not the main thing...
I need the guy to be devoted to only me because i dont like those people that are having alot of sex before meeting me.... This will make all the fun gone as he is satisfied. He will not be as exciting as those people that have sex once a week. daily exercise will make that guy weak....
Hence i would not be able to enjoy as much as i want....
Then the activities cannot be too frequent as well..... it will just spoiled the mood.....
Actually i am very shy on bed.. I do not dare to voice my opinion....
So that guy have to be able to control situation on the bed.. as i always lost it....
He have to know what style to use... and lead me to that particular style...
I like to being lead when doing those nasty stuff..... It just make me feel so controlled...
I am a little bit of masochist anyway.... Then it will be a bonus if that guy is strong~~~
Strong in various aspect though.. physically as well as mentaly... wahahaha...
The penis also have to be strong... and the desired to break me also have to be strong....

There are a few style that i like.... like 69... this is good because i love to give blowjob... and at the same time i can enjoy being teased... but not much guy like to lick me i guess...
then next maybe girls on top... this is cool because i can feel what ever i like to feel... But again i dont have the confident in it.. i am afraid the guy will think that i am boring.....
but being myself on top is really cool... i can see his expression..... this is the best part....
actually i really like to hear a guy moan... but it is so hard to happen...

Sex slaves...

I did mention about being sex slave last time.. It just for role play though.. but i like the idea alot..
Just imagine being used and insult... haha.. this is so SM...
I like it when he is abit rough when having sex with me... biting my nipple or ear lobe is so exciting... Of course being gentle also important. Just inagine, he will slowly kiss on my breast.. Left bresat and the other hand on right breast. Kissing slowly and gently, then fondle my tits with his tongue... keep licking them.. ehmm.. just imagine it make me real high.. ^^ then he will suck on them... making those inappropiate sound.. this is so sexy... Then slowly bite on my nipple... at first it should be a gentle nimble.. but then can increase the forst of bitting.. But be careful not to hurt it too much that u actually bite it off.. lol.. then it will be cannibalism already~~~ I like it hard when it come to sex... Then while the mouth is on the left side.. the hand on the right side should not stop. It can squeze my breast... then maple pinch on my nipple as well... The sensation will be supper.. lol...
When i am watching porn, i rather watch them kissing each other or playing each other nipple then watch the actual fucking scene...

I am so tired now after working~~ standing for almost 10 hours.. wel i did sit down every now and then but still its tiring~~~
What I really need now is a warm kiss on my lips... neck.. shoulder.... and slowly went down... ops.. I should stop here.. ^^

I really wish I can have someone that willing to hug me... just a simple hug will do... I think what I really seek in sex it just some simple attention.. But of course... Orgasm is an important aspect as well..
If talk about orgasm.. Actually there are none man had made me orgasm before. LOL I am such a sad person. Event though after i have sex for 4 hours (have some rest in between) I still cant feel satisfied.

Guess how many times I can masturbate in a week? Well... more then 10 times I think. thats for normal days.... For those days that I am really desperate.. I can masturbate 3 to 4 times a day and do it almost every day... wahahahaha
I am mostly in need (for masturbate) before i fell asleep or the time when i woke up.
That is the time where my body feel really hot and really wish that i have a guy that sleep beside me and have a cock ready for me to use..^^
Just like I told you guys that I dont have any masturbate tools other then my finggers.. SO I only use finggers when i am HORNY.. ^^

First I will use my middle fingger to play with my clit..... thats to stimulate myself to produce those "juices".. ^^ when it is still not that wet i will insert my fingger into my vagina very quickly and hard... so I will feel some pain in the process... But this is the part that I enjoy alot.. ^^ (maybe I am a SM afterall).
After a few thrusting with my fingger in to my pussy, then I will continue to play with my clit untill I CUM. The moment I cum I will automatically close my leg and i can feel the wetness in my pussy drop into my mattress and tight. ^^ after i CUM my vagina will be very very sensitive.. At this point of time i will use 2 finggers to thrust my pussy... The feeling is so hard to describe~~~ It is so nice.... That after a few thrusting will make me so full... So satisfied that I can finaly have the will to Fell asleep of wake up.. ^^

Thats why.. I have decided one thing. I will not let the guy to penetrate me Before he can make me cum.. ^^

some of my sex experience

Well as i told u guys, I met this guy few years ago and he is my first... I really dont encourage people to do so. I am so regret it right now. It is My virginity and i lost it in a public toilet. WHat a joke.

But something really weird... I wonder what happen back then but i never bleed when he first insert his cock into me...
Maybe i am already not a virgin since long long time ago...
Or i am born without that layer of skin in my vagina?

But it hurt.. abit... or i am just slow? there was time where I am really hurt when I am peeing.. But it just for a period of time like a week.. and that happen after i have sex with him for 5 or 6 weeks.
I met him constantly for sex after that.
We will met at some hotel at geylang ( something more decent i think coz it is clean and the room is nice).. sometime hotel 88 at lavender.. etc...
We had alot of sex... I love when we had roleplay. Esplecially when i roleplay as his sex slave... haha.. maybe I am a masochist afterall..

But he nvr really ask me to do anything weird other then take out my panties when we are on the bus. Or dont wear bra When i am meeting him(which i never dare to do it) But well i did took out my panties various of time... hahahaha........
Then in the cinema also.. I always gave him blow job there... he seem to like it alot if i were to give him blow job in the public....

once he promise me to buy me a sex toy.. but he never did.. well I really like to have one.. But i dont have the courage to keep it... Coz i will never know when people will found out...^^ haiz... But i really want to have one... It seem so good when people play with it.

Something like this will be fun.. wahahaha.... But well i do not dare to buy or keep it.. i hope my partner (sex partner) would buy something like this for me and well keep it for me and bring it everytime we have sex... hahaha.. but wehre got such a nice guy that willing to go to this extend?? i wonder...

Dear Elson.. (part2)

Wow, it was so big. maybe around 15 to 17 cm.. Fully erected, and have this small amound of pre cum on top of its head... yummy..

"Ms Loo, I cant take it anymore." he said this words while stroking his rod. Then he suddenly grab my hair and shove his cock into my mouth. So violent. He forcefully make me do a blow job. Well if he can asked nicely i would definitely do it to.

"Ugh.. Ms Loo.. Your mouth feel so good". He keep shoving it in and out.
"Uhm... arhh... ehmm...". I cant speak anything. His cock is in my mouth. and he shove it so deep it make me hurt. but I cant say that I am not enjoying this.. He keep making me blow job him for a while then he increased the speed on shoving his cock.

"Oh.. I'm cumming I'm cumming". He shouted. Then he pull his cock out of my mouth and and shoot all his sperm onto my face. So hot. I licked the sperm that near my lips. As I thought Yummy.. I use my finger to collect more of the sperm and licked it. Elson now siting beside me exhausted. But I am not satisfy yet. So I push him to lay on the sofa.

"Elson, I am not satisfy yet. Would you help your poor teacher?" I teased him. He is such a good boy. His penis straight away stand up again.. ehmm.. Good job.. Now I slowly lick on his penis again.. so hot.. ehmm.. and the ball ball.. i put the ball into my mouth. Suck on them.. ehm.. nice. Then i get up and crawl up p him..
"Elson, Can I kiss You?". without waiting for his replay i kiss him.. this is the best in sex.. "after sucking can get a kiss".. Then i sit on is leg and my hand play on his cock. Strocking it slowlly and increasing the speed as he keep moaning...
"Elson, look here.. i will inserting your penis into my pussy now." I get up from his cock and aiming my pussy while asking him to look up. I want to see his expression.

"ehmm... ah... ehm... your cock feel so nice Elson."
"Oh Ms Loo... you are so tight."
"oh yess... oh yess...." I keep moaning while riding his cock. He also tried to push his cock deeper into my pussy... ahm... this feeling.. I like is so much. I dont think I will ever get tired of having a cock inside my pussy.... ehm.....

He suddenly get up and change the position into doggie style. Well i dont hate doggy stely but at least he had to inform me first. I dont like to be control... But well i forgive him this time since this is his first time.. But next time.. He will definitely get some.."punishment". hehehe...
He tried very hard to push his cock into me.. but well he is still too "green". He cant get the hole right. So I help him by opening my pussy wide.

"Here is my pussy. Dont need so rush. Slowly aim your penis here then insert the head into it first before you push it inside". Hahaha.. I am still a teacher after all. Teaching my student the right way to insert his cock into my pussy. Once a teacher, always a teacher... Anyway he got it right this time and... ah... his cock so big... and my pussy so wet now. it is so easy for him to insert and pull out his cock... and he driving me crazy by inserting it so hard... ah... ehm... nice work...
I will give him 80 mark for this....

"Oh yes... Harder Elson, ehmm... yes... oh... harder.... Break me apart.... oh... ehmm...." I cant help myself keep moaning.. he is so good even thought this is his first time.. well I assume that this is his first time. Then he pull me up and grab my boobs. SO hard it is pain.. but well this is so exciting... Ehmm... Oh... yes... he is sucking on my nipple now... wow i like people sucking on my nipple.. maybe a little bite will be better.. bu ithink he wouldnt dare to do it... oh... yes.. this is so good.... He keep pumping my pussy so hard.. argh.. ehmm.... yess...

"Teacher i am cumming. Oh Ms Loo i am cumming..." He shouted when he almost reched climax...
"ehmm wait awhile more.. pump me harder.. harder... dont cum first.. wait" I quickly ask him to wait first.. i havent reached.... lol.. he is so fast.. we only do it for maybe 15 minutes... damn it...
"Ms Loo.. I cannot take it already.. ugh..".
"Eh wait.. dont come inside.. u dint wear..." Before i finished my words he shoot it inside already.. so warm i can feel his sperm inside me.. wow.. he shoot quite a few times... and it is so strong~~~ ugh.. but i havent come yet and he dint wear protection too... zzzzzz.. Never mind... he is first timer... i will slowly teach him some manners...

"Ah.. Ms Loo.. this is so good". He is panting while saying this words... I can see his sweat oh his forehead is dripping. lol.. this so cute..... i just love him. his cock is still inside me. Well dint shrink yet. still as big as before...
"Elson.... I havent reached climax yet" i said sadly..
"I am sorry Ms Loo.. What can i do for you?" hahaha he ask what can he do... hmm... well what should i make him do?... i got an idea...

I made him kneel on the floor and lick on my pussy while I am sitting on the sofa... Oh My... i just love this.. watching him servicing me from above..... what a view...
"oh yess.. Elson.. lick my clit... yes.. faster.. your tongue... ugh.. that right... faster.. oh yes... suck on it.. ohm... oh.. yes.. your fingger.." He even inserted his fingger into my pussy while licking me.. Oh Yes.. where did he lean this.. this is so good..
"Oh yes... ehmm keep going.. I am cumming.. ehm... oh.. yesh.. arghhhhhhh...." Finnaly i came.. yes.. wow it has been long time i dint came this hard... oh yess this is so good... I am already enticipating next time..
OH MY dear student.....


The End

Elson Dear...

It is another normal teaching day. I have been looking at the clock for a long time. I wonder what should I do later?. Maybe I will find some handsome guy to sooth my thirst.
Oh, when did I last time have sex? I think it has been a few months.

I have been so busy this few months preparing Questions for exams and Revision Classes for my students. Another year pass by but i still remain single. Why they dont have sexy and naughty male teachers here? But the students are nice. Some of it are so cute. I always have fantasies about them. Just imagine how young and Strong they can be. Oh.. it makes me real wet.

"Ring~~ Ring~~". At last the final class of the semester finished. My long awaited holiday. Yahooo.... Just i was about leaving the class and locked it, Elson approached me. Well Elson was a guy with well build body, he had fair skin, tall, and wearing glasses. Wow, its definitely my type. I have been dreaming about him since i step into this class. Just imagined he licking my tits, ehmm.. and his fingers, long and strong, teasing my pussy... Oh...

"Ms Loo, Ms Loo, you ok?" Ops, where have i been? Hope i dint drooling just now.
"Yes Elson. Anything?".
"Are you free later? I have some private matter that i need to discuss with you".
"Oh, Ok, lets go to meeting room. You can speak freely there." Hmm another problem student. Hope it is not something too serious. He looked really troubled.

When we are in the meeting room, i ask him to sit down so we can have a proper "discussion". But he suddenly hug me from behind.So tightly that I almost cant breath. I was really startled. What is it about?
"Ms Loo, i have been dreaming about you since the first day i saw you. I love you Ms Loo."

Then he started to force a kiss into my lips. Wow so forceful. Hmm the taste not bad. So warm and passionate. ehmm nice.. Opss what am i doing? He is my student. And I am his teacher. We are still in school ground. But well, today is the last day of school. Most of the teacher should have gone back. And looking at the time, There should be no one in the school ready. And his kiss... Ugh I dont really care anymore. I started to enjoy his kiss and kiss him back. Well he look surprise... wow so cute~~
His kiss is such an "immature" kiss. I should teach him what is the real kiss about.
I push him to lay down on the meeting table then start to lick his lips. Then I insert mu tongue into his mouth and lick his tongue. So wet~~ and hot. We keep playing our tongue for sometimes. Then I get up from him. Wow his face so cute... I cant take it anymore.

"Elson, would you help me?" I asked carefully.
"Yes Ms Loo, I will do anything for you." Good answer.
"My pussy is wet now. Would you help me to undress my underwear? I dont want to stain it". Hahaha.. I should bring my camera with me. His expression is like.. classic... I wish i can keep this expression. ^^

"So, Would you help me?" I asked again when he is still stunned at there.. hahaha.. this is so fun... He suddenly jump up from the table and pushed me to a small sofa in the room. Then he kneeled on the floor and lift up my skirt. Lucky I am wearing a sexy black laces panties today. He slowly pull down my panties and stared at my pussy. Then he start playing them with his index finger. My pussy is so wet now. Ugh.. it so nice..

"ehmm.... Elson.. it feels good". He suddenly put his finger into his mouth tasting my pussy juice.. Then he start licking my pussy..
"Ehhmmm.. Ahhhnnn..." I moaned. It feel so good...
"Yes.. ehmm continue.. ah..." Wow he is really good at this. He using his tongue to lick at my clitoris. He will suck on my pussy also...
"Ah... so good... ah.. ehmmnnnn... emmnn" Sometime he will also gently bite it.. wow this sensation... i love it so much...

Then he suddenly stand up and pull down his zip and take out his cock. Wow it so big.

To Be Continue....

My first experience

Actually, i am a very desperate girl. LOL
I have been thinking about sex for a very long time.
I lost my virginity to a guy i know from internet.
And it is in a public toilet, somewhere in Jurong East area.
I cant really believe it myself.
We had sex while i am standing. And he Fuck me from behind.

I knew him trough mIRC. He is a Singaporean.
That time i was just 17 Yrs old.
So on 18 Mar 2006, when I still havent got into poly.
2 days before my birthday. I had sex.
Hahaha. We went for a movie.
Well he said want to celebrate my BIRTH day.
We watched nanny Mc---- something. lol.
cant remember.
In the cinema we had make out a little bit.
I did some blow job.
he also well, petting my Pussy. ^^
Its so exciting.

Sometime I will also give him blow job in the bus. Can u imagine it.
I dont know why I am so bold.